Showing posts with label Nostalgia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Nostalgia. Show all posts

Monday, October 5, 2015

Nostalgia - Part 4


Once you are in the flow, you start enjoying it and want more of it.

This is true in many situations. Sometimes there is hesitation to do things - even those that we enjoy the most. At such a phase we start doubting our own beliefs and abilities. It has happened to me on many occasion. I have realized long back that I enjoy writing. Nothing in particular. About anything that actually inspires me to write. But there are certain times when I don't feel like writing anything. When my friends - who know that I write, ask me why I haven't written anything for some time, I tell them that I don't feel like. In those days, i doubt whether I can really write. Whether I really have it me.

But it's just a phase. That too, I have realized. My wrong English is to be pardoned, though. One spark and I start again. And once I start it's like the waves in the ocean - no recess. Thoughts that have been logged in for a long time start flowing and fingers keep typing.

Words actually give meaning to emotions. That's why writers are sensitive. Because if you can't feel a thing, how can you write about it? A small piece from my old diary - I think this was a result of having tried to put my feelings into words.

No Title

Life seems to be a thorny bush 
I feel like I am struggling in heavy push 
Many things in my mind to say 
But I am so helpless today 
My head is full of helpless thoughts 
But no one about to soothe my heart. 
I keep praying to god - Please give me strength 
And I keep saying to my uneasy heart - 
Do Good 
Think good 
Hope for good. 
Life has a good purpose, 
So go deep into life and don't float on the surface.

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Nostalgia - Part 3


After a long silence, decided to write something today. For the past few days i have been feeling a desire to write - literally it is "Type". Exactly don't remember how long it has been since i have actually hand written something. Well i do scribble some things in the name of making notes during office discussions or while i am day dreaming or talking over the phone - Oh and that's called doodling. I do all this, but when i take a pen to actually write something of matter, my hands shiver within moments of writing. It is as if, after so many years of typing, my fingers have actually rusted and are unable to hold a pen in place without making creaking noise.

Now, this is my problem. I start off to do something and then in the flow of things get carried away and end up doing something else. I started this article (This is going to be quite a lengthy one) with the idea of continuing the "Nostalgia" series. The third in the series, this is kind of an essay i had written - god knows when. Today when i read it from my old diary, i was taken aback by this one piece of writing because, i don't remember from where exactly i got the quote (of a famous personality) i have referred at the last. Now i believe i was not supposed to be an engineer - and definitely not a computer engineer.

The essay is as follows. I have decided to put it down here without any corrections.

Children of tomorrow

Every woman wishes to become a mother. Becoming a mother, according to women - the most extreme success of her womanhood. It proves that she is really a woman. It is said that child is given by god. It is the wealth given by god, when so why don't we protect this wealth.

Most of the parents are thinking much of their child that instead of giving them love they feed them with English, Maths, Social, science and computer. Competition and ego has made parents blind. All that passes through their mind is the rank that their child gets, the medals and the cups he gets. Not only parents but also institutions are taking advantage of this. They need good results. They push the child into midst of heaps of books and home works through which these poor godly gifts creep like worms - book worms. Does this satisfy them? No, they still need fame through these poor children. When a child is three years old, it likes to play in sand, build houses out of it and roam about. Instead they are put to chains, they sit in the school not able to understand what the teacher is saying. Some parents always want and pray to god that their child should get 1st rank. They never pray, "Please keep my child happy".

Here grows adult’s conspiracies against childhood. Nowadays competition like charity begins at home. Mothers become restless if their child does not start crawling or walking at the right age, not because of his health awareness but because the child next door has already started doing it. This is the fact or reality that many parents deny. They want their children to become engineers and doctors because they themselves could not become all these. They thrust their dreams onto their children and bring them up under the burden of their own dreams. A childhood of innocence and happiness is thus lost.

"And a woman who held her babe against her bosom said, speak to us of children.
And he said.
Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you.
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts, for they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls, for their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth."

- The Prophet of Khalil Gibran

So leave your child to live.
You just lead them and don't load them.
Teach them to dream. Teach them to be happy.

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Nostalgia - Part 2


This episode of the series is dedicated to one of the few special people in my life - my sister. This is her creation. I have decided to include this in my series because she will never do it on her own. If she ever decides to collect her thoughts and put them down some where safe, i will be sharing this rare article with her.

I remember, when i read this poem the first time, it was revelation to me that she could possibly be so emotional. Till that time i had never related my sister to the word emotions. I don't know what made her write this small piece at that time when she was so young. I have never asked her about it. The words to me, seem quite heavy for a small girl. May be she was hurt. May be an incident that may sound silly to her today. I can only keep guessing. But this is precious.


"Today"

Today is the day 
when my future slipped away 

Today is the day 
when i was left astray 

Today is the day 
when my enemies were gay 

Today is the day 
when i was stoned away 

Today is the day 
when my heart was stolen away

Nostalgia - Part 1

This is a series of mind boggling thoughts that i had converted into words - years back. I used to scribble a lot in bits and pieces of paper. Luckily for me, i have saved them all. Today a bulb suddenly glowed in my mind and i dug out those papers from the heap of old stocks at home. When i dusted them out and read them, i went back in time to those days. All those cells that store memories were activated- days and events started rolling out in front of me like a movie.Well, for me these will be my greatest creations ever. This is how i started to write. And this is what even today inspires me to write. One at a time, i will publish each creation here in my blog, so that i will never loose them.

I was in love desperately. A time when fights were a daily affair. Hear break was just around the corner. Almost at the edge of loosing someone whom i considered most important in my life. These words are dancing dolls of emotions that blurted out from my mind. Will naive be an overrated word for this?? I guess most of the creations in this series will be in that line..
"I but U" 

You came in like a stream 
But vanished like a dream 

You gave me thoughts
But took away my words 

You gave me a heart 
But took away the beats 

You showed me my goal
But took away my soul 

You soared me high into dreams
But suddenly plucked away my wings